Today was an important date for Portugal in 1974. A revolution was made to set free a country from a harsh dictatorship. Nowadays we throwback our minds to the reason why our freedom was in cause and mostly why still have so many changes to do: not only politically but also humanly. Life is a force that can drive us through so many story-lines that sometimes is confusing to pick our conquests and to face our losses. I was pleasantly surprised with this new ad of Super Bock. This simple premise represents a whole generation who’s connected all the time but still, we tend to find ourselves alone (and kind of lost). To be free nowadays you must pay the price of keeping good friends around. Real relationships. Unconditional love. The battle starts within you: keeping safe every single soul that you nurture, caring about someone who drastically changed you, be around the ones you’ve decided to commit no matter what. Go out. Fight for it.
I’ve just turned 25 today and as a symptom of a quarter-life crisis, I’ve started questioning all my decisions… except one: I didn’t even questioned myself on trading professional success with personal achievements. I would never make such a trade. I don’t want to destroy those relationships, I don’t want to delete my past. Being successful is a fortunate event, not a goal. Otherwise you take the risk on being selfish with yourself versus your ego (as you can see there’s literally no point on questioning this sort of matter). I’ve started appreciating the good people I’ve met in the past few years, those strangers in my life who helped me. Without further notice, I’ve started to believe that, in fact, there’s good will in people. This example represents all the beautiful things my friends say to me unexpectedly.
Those words are the living prof of how lucky I am to meet such kind, warm people (even sometimes without noticing how incredible they are). They treasure some random moments that I’ll never forget. Those moments are the best gift of all. So, thank you for letting me, keeping you, close to my heart; and for listening, of course. I’m deeply grateful for all your words.
When something is defined as inexplicable we usually tend to assume that every now and then, everything has to do with luck. We pray to the gods, we check horoscopes to see if the starts are aligned, we do good deeds to “clean” our karma. But the truth is, life happens anyway. Even though you’re a good person, the most unexpected things can happen.
At the moment I’m scared that I’ll lose everything that I have in order to build or achieve a new life. Even though I’m in a new phase, it doesn’t mean I have to destroy my past to “make room” for a new future. Having self-doubt is essential for learning and achieving a graceful appreciation for our mistakes. Loosen your expectations, and find comfort in the fact that you’re not alone. We’re all going through something. Feeling weak it’s an human behavior and there’s people in this world to help you standing up again. Don’t be selfish with yourself, rely within the ones you love the most. Be grateful for your ambition and for your voice. You’re going somewhere.
P.S. – this whole text reminded me of that cheesy-everyone-knows-saying: “Life Is a Journey, Not a Destination”.
The only thing that gets me every time as an artist is when you walk in into your new working space. It can be an old theatre venue or a nowhere stage, it doesn’t matter; by the time you’re wondering around, you start to get used to the backstage, the rehearsals and the usual rhythm of bringing words on paper to life. This is what creativity feels like. Bringing light into a new perspective, connecting with an audience and provoking versatile opinions. It feels like it’s more than art itself. It’s an ultimatum. It’s unique.
where it all began
The greyness of London reminds me why everyone keeps up with such high pace. I believe if you stop for a second in a metropolis like this one you’ll be devoured by a huge hole of emptiness where bitterness resigns. If I could describe this city in one word it would be “proactive-in-ecstasy” (because even tough it’s killing you, we still do it). We run to work, we go home to some frozen food, we consume media we don’t need, we stay vibrant in an environment that swallows the art of mesmerizing. “this is it”, they say. I don’t agree. I keep saying over and over to my self-conscious-survival-instinct: “if everything goes to shit, let’s move somewhere new and hate all of it all over again”. The truth is “you don’t know what you have until it’s gone.”; and life it’s a funny ping-pong game between these silver linings.
The last couple of days have been dark and edgy in the most unexpected way. London is a harsh business jungle where everything seems to be designed for one thing only: work hard. This mixture between industrial Frankfurt sights, cultural ethnic Berlin and a touch of British taste has an explosive result on these Londoners. I’ve been wondering why I was so fascinated with this particular city… perhaps the english charm has been lost or maybe this is a new decade defining a new capital. Nothing is perfect. I’ll stick to my goals, the people who I love and my curiosity. After all, that’s all I’ve got.
Sometimes you just need a reality check. We need to think that we’ll not be living miserably and we’re responsible for making the best we can for ourselves. Everything will be fine. When you’re leaving a place that’s so close to your heart, it feels like you have to choose between love and going abroad. After several anxiety attacks (of my personal experience), I’ve decided the best thing to do dealing with this signs of “weakness” (being uncomfortable, insecure, fragile) it’s simply to avoid thinking that you don’t deserve this “new reality”. Avoid conceiving bad thoughts. It sounds simple but it can be incredibly hard sometimes. We’re all human and we deserve happiness. It’s our nature. So, when you think you have to pick between two or three (or even more) of your own personal conquests, don’t make a choice. You deserve everything. We live in times where we can communicate with anyone we want and still be together through it all. That’s what matters in the end.